soul talk

Why are you cast down, O my soul,

and why are you in turmoil within me?

Hope in God; for I shall again praise him,

my salvation and my God.

Psalm 42:11

Emotion overwhelms:

sorrow, pain,

bewildering change.

It all seems more than

I can take in.

It is all more than

I should manage.

I want to give in.

I want to just feel bad.

I want everybody to pity me...

to be noticed in my suffering

as if that would make me feel better.

It doesn’t.

The flood of feelings, I can’t control.

The desire to empower them to

get me what I want IS

what I do control.

I tell myself to pray.

I tell myself to trust God.

I tell myself to hope.

And by that soul talk I change.

I find God’s Word telling me

what to say to my soul,

how to choose to think

about how I feel, and

Who to believe when 

I am overwhelmed.